Posterous theme by Cory Watilo

Sleep(lack of)

Got surface quality on my mind.
The paint is not satisfying at all at the moment.
Spatial elements are interesting
Trashing work in mid- final stages is becoming tedious.

If this makes no sense, its 5.30 am and i've been awake thinking bout it most of the night. Typically I could easily nod off now, but have to get up soon!

Fitter Happier

Artist(Band):Radiohead

more productive comfortable not drinking too much regular exercise at the gym (3 days a week) getting on better with your associate employee contemporaries at ease eating well (no more microwave dinners and saturated fats) a patient better driver a safer car (baby smiling in back seat) sleeping well (no bad dreams) no paranoia careful to all animals (never washing spiders down the plughole) keep in contact with old friends (enjoy a drink now and then) will frequently check credit at (moral) bank (hole in wall) favours for favours fond but not in love charity standing orders on sundays ring road supermarket (no killing moths or putting boiling water on the ants) car wash (also on sundays) no longer afraid of the dark or midday shadows nothing so ridiculously teenage and desperate nothing so childish at a better pace slower and more calculated no chance of escape now self-employed concerned (but powerless) an empowered and informed member of society (pragmatism not idealism) will not cry in public less chance of illness tires that grip in the wet (shot of baby strapped in back seat) a good memory still cries at a good film still kisses with saliva no longer empty and frantic like a cat tied to a stick that's driven into frozen winter shit (the ability to laugh at weakness) calm fitter, healthier and more productive a pig in a cage on antibiotics

Flood at studio

All excited about a mornings painting, only to find studio swimming with water!

Five paintings ruined, 3 of which were still being worked on, and one that was pretty special. Quite a few stretchers warped and a few meters of linen damaged.

Not a happy bunny! Sure I can get compensation for materials, bit can never get the work back. Would have posted pics, but really have not got the heart.

Trouble!

P55

Like a lot of my work, this started out promising, but it's got a bit too busy. I was thinking about scrapping this altogether, but after time away I still think it has something.
The problem is I don't what to do. How the hell do you paint yourself out of trouble? I could literally paint out or scrub away the problems, but that doesn't seem appropriate. Any ideas, anyone?

The inability to repeat

I'm finding it difficult to transfer what is working in some paintings across to others.

This is somewhat a double edged sword, on the one hand it avoids all the work becoming derivative of each other. This will help give a separate identity for each.

The downside of course is that nothing is working today. It's human nature to try and repeat what has worked before.

Perhaps I'm expecting to improve with every new work? This is not going to happen, maybe I need to accept that for every good piece there will be several bad ones?